it has been 10 months since i logged in to my wordpress, been out of army for 8 months and started work 7 months ago. amazing year i have been thru in year 2010.
lets start with army. ippt gold soc pass both with 1 try, atec2 was the last major outfield event as a soldier and lastly, the ORD parade. the last post i was 50days away from my ORD date and now? awaiting reservist. naise. army wasnt that bad, and i really miss the days in camp. people of different group put together living under the same roof, we played and we shared the hard times, we transformed from boys and men. i am pleased to see the 2 years, not really well spent but, was so far i learnt the most.
ORD-ed, long awaited freedom returned. it wasnt that long before i know the reality of not having enough money on me. it was hard. 22years old not having savings, i know. i wanted to have as much fun as i could. i wanted to take a breather from everything. i wanted so much things but i couldnt do anything without money. few jobs i have interviewed, wasnt good i should say. first was not in my field of studies which i have to admit, but the second, hmmm. wasnt my kinda job i would progress in future. i got the third, as a TA, a IT support deployed by HP to schools, but currently under NCS.
2010, ended.
2011, will be a good year.
resolutions? i have. i will make my life better than 2010.
“the man who is swimming against the stream knows the strength of it”
near 2 years ago i blogged about whats gonna happen in the next years when i was about to enter army.
2years ago i said about, hereen. indeed, hereen didnt close down but it changed ALOT.
2years ago i said about, my berms and baggy jeans. indeed, berms are kinda out of trend and baggy jeans is never in trend.
2years ago i said about, friend married. indeed, she’s married.
2years ago i said about, reading back my post and will realise im childish. for this, definitely no. reading back old stuffs made me wonder why did i ever had those kind of thoughts i never had now. amazing.
today’s date is 7march2010. 50days later will be a new lease of life. for those who stayed together, played together or whatsoever, will be going towards different direction in life. for the past 16months, we ate, slept, played, fight, ran, exercise, or practically lived together. imagine life without those who made it happened. months back i didn’t realise time has been ticking that fast. rather then waiting for time to come, it’s time for me to do something before my time is up. selfish thinking, another 2months, no one but myself, family, girlfriend.
to pretend, i had to pretend to pretend.
don’t know if anyone ever think twice before doing anything, or maybe once. like moment of impulse when it comes to a certain situation. quick reaction, and therefore did something against own wish. regrets here and there blahblah. wonder why you did that? cause that’s how you deal with things.
regret? then think twice.
guys who brags, seriously turn off. i wonder, whats going through their mind when they did so. brags, about the past success? PAST!? alright, who’s gonna praise that past anyway.
pretty thumbnail i got.
arguments should be avoided,
cause they tend to be unreasonable.
really been some time since i blogged.
alil lost at first, but after reading few previous post, i feel i’m somewhere there again.
career. working, for future and money.
job. working, for nothing except money.
that’s the difference. gotta think of the career side alr. army has never been a career, but a job. after 2 years, jobless. not necessarily what career i pick, it’s about how i do what i do. gotta think far think hard, trying.
sometimes you cant see clearly,
until you see yourself through the eyes of others.
how true. worst, mixing in the same clique of, maybe 3, not realizing how people perceive them. how dumb.
take time to realize.
i’m back blogging, without a bang.
silently, wondering who would notice i posted this.
secretly, alil lost for words tonight.
anw, good to be back=)
永远 , 就让我说爱你.
一百遍不够 , 还不够.
让一切再从头.
你放手, 全放手.
我不想要的自由.
before you know it, its another day gone. before you done it, its another second gone. time is never enough. time never wait for people. random. and i dontknow what else to type. im going out. ahem. i blogged=DD
brand new.
this year ain’t a good year uh. everything doesn’t seems to be smooth sailing for me. but it’s alright=)
some said wait, but moved on. some said together, but with another. many said, but did otherwise. i shan’t say more about this, cause this is the way i see some friends treat another. like kinda abit hypocrite uh. sometimes i see things i would do/help, if it’s within my limits. but to some ‘friends’ , either ‘forgot’ or act busy. how nice uh.
how fair could life be? never. the rich and the poor. the better looking and the not-so-good looking. too bad some things in life, humans can’t do single shit about anything, or is left with no choice. fight for a little bit of fairness, not exactly fair but balanced.
love and trust is like a package. no trust, no love. i know it, from the start. i took a bet with trust at stake, thinking i would be able to win happiness. yeap i did, and i got a short-term happiness. love comes with trust, but trust doesnt break the love, i feel.
reflections.
Protected:
February 12, 2009
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February 12, 2009
everyone is growing. everything is changing. world is evolving. so unpredictable life would be. so excited where the next destination is.
when you find a problem with someone,
it’s because there’s a problem in yourself to accept that person.
hey love, Brunei is getting nearer. think of the 93 days of happiness passed. what’s 14 days? let’s add another 12days of happiness before i leave=)
unidentified unlimited happiness =D
life keeps getting in the way. whenever we try, somehow the plan is always rearranged. much to say, but don’t really know how to start.
behbi, enjoy yourself during your stay at msia=)
estimations. assumptions. have confidence, that’s where good judgment can be made. i feel.
confidence is the key to many. over-confidence and no confidence is the key to self destruction. said, it won’t happened for sure and it happened. nothing is for sure. chances, of happening, is there. have some space of thoughts for others, no one is always right/win. allow others to share views rather than compare who is smarter, dumber or silliest. allow another to have choices than nothing to choose. breathing space, the space one gave another to survive, or maybe live longer.
imagine a picture. different people with different views. how amazing.
grow, grew, grown. process. no one skips any of these process in life, do they?
i think baby doesn’t understand, i’m venting on my blog. hehe.
flying to holland! BYEBYE WEIWEI! HAHA!!
faith, that’s why you chose it.
chance, its up to someone to give another another try.
hope, you want it, but just wishing for it to happen.
confidence, when u see yourself better and above others.
dependence, to be able to rely on someone, who doesn’t want it?
end of block leave, little little time spent, is cherished.
example – i can, i think. if can means can, why must think. if confident enough, there’s nothing to think about. all can do it, if they remove that 1percent thought that they can’t. like if one person has the negative mindset, all things doesn’t come out well. even if trying to avoiding thinking, means it’s still on your mind. nevermind, human nature. envy those who doesn’t use brain to think. hehe.
think, and it’ll hinder you.
remove that redundant thoughts.
happiness lingers from yesterday to today. don’t say own lives to live. cause the life we live is the happiest spent, like a short walk outside timbre=) timbre was great. movie was nice, except that dumb girl didn tell me her arm went numb. hehe.
like wtf, friendster sucks to the core. dontknow what else to say. weekend, haa, what a week to end. nama.
lets say it was only a sec away or more, i still didn’t make it. it was so close getting gold, an addition 100bucks and a badge. which NSmen doesn’t want it? i tried my best, being a not-so-good runner. may smile when i know i got my personal best, but it wasn’t what i want. i need alil more support. i want to do it, so do i want to quit.
few steps away. push me hard. don’t give me up.
each day is a gift, not a given right.
every second counts cause there’s no second try.
make this week another best. allow today to end well and await tomorrow, no need to be happier than ever, no need to be any sweeter. yesterday’s joy, overflowed to today, and tomorrow.
success comes with a price=)
